Name: Karen

Nicknames:

[Thursday, February 27, 2003 | 11:12 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Love Psychedelico - Your Song]

Canada First tomorrow and Saturday. Whee! ^_^

I'm off to fail my Calculus test tomorrow morning, then off to CF at Humber College I shall go.

My marks are dropping. The first set of marks to go to OUAC are not finalized yet and English, AP Calc, Mod West, Philosophy are going down. I dread the second set of marks. And I still have to fill out those idiotic PIFs for Queens for Commerce and Arts. They're so full of bullshit. >_< I don't even want to go to Commerce, yet I applied. >_<;

Overwhelming stress of school most unpleasant. Minor (or major?) health problems popping up. Want March Break.

Finished Children of the Mind and halfway through Ender's Shadow. It was bittersweet at the end of Children of the Mind and I'm still muddled over the metaphysics, biology, physics, and philosphy of the Ender Quartet. Orson Scott Card r0xx0r5 80xx0r5.

[Tuesday, February 25, 2003 | 04:44 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Vertical Horizon - We Are]

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooo...

I got up to Stage 21 and an A on Nonstop on DWI, but it didn't record the fucking thing! Bollocks, bollocks, BOLLOCKS!

this is my way to live
What about yours?
made by rav-chan

Strings of Fate updated. HUZZAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!! XD

[Monday, February 24, 2003 | 11:06 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Noir - Salva Nos]

"Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live."

"One's real life is often the life that one does not lead."

"The truth is rarely pure and never simple."

Oscar Wilde

[Monday, February 24, 2003 | 01:25 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Goo Goo Dolls - Big Machine]

Nova Next Exit is amusing.

Boondock Saints will have a sequel, Boondock II: All Saints Day. *snrks* Hopefully, it'll be good, but the title cheeses it up so much.

Karmen, could I get the username and password to your blog please?

Finished Xenocide. I've never read a series that I've wanted to finish so badly, but not continue reading. I want to finish it, but sometimes, it gets hard because I know it's going to end up resolved in a screwy manner. And it's not even for school, it's just for me.

40 days & nights PS2 challenge is wearing down on my nerves. I want Dark Cloud 2, Guilty Gear X2, Suikoden III, and Xenosaga so badly. I need an RPG fix. Argh! But I will prevail, I swear I will, then at 12:01 a.m. Monday morning, I will start playing PS2 with a bang with GTA3, then VC, then SSX Tricky. I will hopefully purchase DC2 and GGX2, go over to another friend's house and play Xenosaga, Suikoden III, Timespllitters 2, and a load of games and play til I fall over. XD

Two weeks, oh god, two weeks...*goes away to bang her head against a wall*

DWI...I'm so addicted. *twitchy fingers* Need to get A on era (long version)...

[Sunday, February 23, 2003 | 06:03 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Brooklyn Bounce - Club Bizarre]

Overdose of DWI, all on Heavy mode.

Passed Era Long Version finally. Got a B, but could have done better if I hadn't been playing for an hour before. My fingers, arm and wrist are cramped and stiff. I've never had such an exhausting obsession.

[Friday, February 21, 2003 | 10:23 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Vertical Horizon - Everything You Want]

You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Why Nerds are Unpopular. School administration, parents, people concerned with adolescents and students everywhere need to read this. "As a thirteen year old kid, I didn't have much more experience of the world than what I saw immediately around me. The warped little world we lived in was, I thought, the world. The world seemed cruel and boring, and I'm not sure which was worse."

In my opinion, the purpose of school, primary and secondary, is not education, but social and cultural conditioning. That's one step away from indoctrination.

[Thursday, February 20, 2003 | 06:41 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Ayumi Hamasaki - evolution]

[ Name ]: Karen
[ Nicknames ]: kare-chan, mizuki, nyx, verite, klaw, Law
[ Born in ]: Hong Kong
[ Resides in ]: a world of my own devising
[ Eyes ]: Brown
[ Shoe size ]: 6 or 7
[height]: 5'2"
[Weight]: ???

Last time you..
[ Had a nightmare ]: Don't remember
[ Said "I love you" and meant it ]: Never
[ Ate at McDonald's ]: December?
[ Dyed your hair ]: December 28
[ Brushed your hair ]: This morning
[ Washed your hair ]: Last night
[ Checked your e-mail ]: Right now
[ Cried ]: Sometime in the fall
[ Called someone ]: This morning
[ Smiled ]: Around 5 p.m.
[ Laughed ]: This afternoon
[ Talked to an ex ]: I have no ex

Do You...
[ Smoke? ]: No.
[ Do drugs? ]: No.
[ Sleep with stuffed animals? ]: No
[ Play an instrument? ]: Used to
[ Remember your first love? ]: Don't have one
[ Still love him/her? ]: *points up*
[ Have any straight friends? ]: Yes
[ Consider love a mistake? ]: Biologically speaking, yes. When I'm negative, HELL YES. When I'm more positive, no.
[ Like the taste of alcohol? ]: Only if it's something I like
[ Believe in God? ]: Traditional Judeo-Christian-Islamic sense, no
[ Pray? ]: when I'm under severe stress and only to an unknown entity
[ Go to church? ]: Prayers at least three times a week
[ Have any secrets? ]: That's a secret.
[ Talk to strangers who instant message you]: No
[ Wear hats? ]: Only my cat hat
[ Hate yourself? ]: Always, in varying degrees
[ Have an obsession? ]: A better question is when do I not have an obsession
[ Like your handwriting? ]: Occasionally, when it looks good
[ Have any bad habits? ]: More than all the books and manga I own
[ Care about looks? ]: In a person who I'd want to be with sense, no. With a person I'll admire purely for looks, yes.
[ Boy/girlfriend's looks? ]: N/A
[ Friends and other people? ]: No
[ Believe in witches? ]: Yes
[ Believe in ghosts? ]: Yes

Current:
[ Mood ]: sleepy, tired, stressed out on the edges, but semi-relaxed at the center
[ Make-up ]: No
[ Taste ]: Apple juice
[ Annoyance ]: Everything and everyone
[ Smell ]: N/A
[ Thought ]: How many more goddamn questions?
[ Fingernail Color ]: natural
[ Refreshment ]: apple juice
[ Worry ]: everything and everyone
[ Crush ]: *points to secret question*
[ Favorite Celebrity ]: Viggo Mortensen! XD

Last Person:
[ You Touched ]: Emily
[ You Talked to ]: My sister
[ You Hugged ]: Tanya
[ You Instant messaged ]: Ivan
[ You Yelled At ]: Ivan, in a roundabout, non-violent way
[ You Had A Crush On ]: *points up to secret question*
[ Who broke Your Heart ]: I have a heart?

Who do you want to:
[ Kill ]: Whoever deserves it, but even then who can decide?
[ Slap ]: No slapping, a solid kick in the arse is what Stupid White Men like George Bush need
[ Tickle ]: No one, except someone who is very amusing when tickled
[ Talk To ]: Someone with very interesting conversation
[ Have Sex with ]: Dante from DMC
[ Kiss ]: Dante!
[ Be Like ]: A better me

[What's on your bedside table?]: Tissue box, two clocks, a waterproof watch, glasses case, a pile of gaming magazines, Return of the King, The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Trilogy of Four, His Dark Materials series, The Fall of Kings, and Fast Food Nation [What is the geekiest part of your music collection?]: DDR music, cheesy J-pop and some pop songs and *cough*BSBNsyncSpiceGirlsTheMoffatsSClub7CDS*cough*
[What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night?]: Whatever's edible and there
[What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?]: Billy Elliot when the letter from his mum is read out
[If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?]: Would I want to have it done?
[Do you have a completely irrational fear?]: Almost as many obsessions
[What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moment?]: "Ummm...," looking down all the time
[Do you ever have to beg?]: Yes
[Are you a pyromaniac?]: when I feel like it
[Do you have too many love interests?]: Do I have any?
[Do you know anyone famous?]: No
[Describe your bed]: Twin-sized bed, two blue pillow, one orange, a worn orange blanket, a fluffy blue comforter
[Spontaneous or plan?]: Plan, then bust out the spontanity when the occasion calls for it
[Who should play you in a movie about your life?]: ?
[Do you know how to play poker?]: Yes
[What do you carry with you at all times?]: Myself?
[How do you drive?]: I don't drive
[What do you miss most about being little?]: Innocence, naivete, and not-being adult
[Are you happy with your given name?]: No
[How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year?]: Not for all money in the world
[What color is your bedroom?]: light blue with white accents
[What was the last song you were listening to?]: I've - Fuck Me
[Have you ever been in a play?]: No.
[Who are your best friends?]: Don't have any, just have friends
[Have you ever been in love?]: No
[Do you talk a lot?]: Yesssssss
[Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?]: When I get those moments of self-esteem, yes
[Have you ever done any illegal drugs?]: No
[Do you think you're cute?]: No, except people like to tell me that "Oh you're so cute!" in the childish sense
[Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?]: On occasion
[Do you spend more time with your girlfriend, boyfriend, or your friends?]: I'm getting tired of the questions involving (a) boyfriend(s)/girlfriend(s). People can actually exist quite happily in a state of singlehood, as shocking and horrifying as it may sound.
[spell your name backwards]: nerak
[where do you live]: In a world of my own devising
[describe yourself in three words]: Bizarre. Perpetually Doubtful
[who is your worst enemy]: Myself
[if you could have ANY animal for a pet, what would it be]: a striped kitty
[wallet]: Purple leather
[hairbrush]: white
[toothbrush]: Blue
[jewelry worn daily]: watch, a hair elastic
[blanket]: Orange
[underwear]: *points up to secrets question*
[shoes]: three year old, very beaten, scruffy black men's size 5 oxfords or red "bowling" shoes with the soles worn down to nearly nothing
[keychain]: Tare Panda, bell and wooden ring thingy, Puchiko and the cat from DiGi Charat
[tattoos]: None, but if I really really wanted to, then veritas in small script
[piercings]: none
[current music]: Vertical Horizon - We Are
[wearing]: Blue jeans, black long-sleeved shirt
[hair]: loose, shoulder length, dark brown with red highlights
[wishing]: that life would simplify itself
[talking to]: No one but my lonesome self

[Wednesday, February 19, 2003 | 05:22 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Three Dead Trolls in a Baggie - The Toronto Song]

I hate the SkyDome and the CN Tower too;
I hate Nathan Philips Square and the Ontario Zoo!
The rent's too high,
The air's unclean,
The beaches are dirty,
And the people are mean!
And the women are big and the men are dumb
And the children are loopy 'cause they live in a slum!
The water is polluted and the mayor's a dork!
They dress real bad and they think they're New York...
In Toronto . . . !
Ontario . . . oh-oh!

"You know . . . now that I think about it, I pretty much hate all of Ontario!"
"Yeah! Me too!"

I hate Thunder Bay and Ottawa,
Kitchener, Windsor, and Oshawa!
London sucks and the Great Lakes suck,
And Sarnia sucks and Turkey Point sucks!

I took a trip to Ontario to visit Brian Mulroney!
He beat me up and he stole my pants
And he put me in a tree!
I went to see the Maple Leafs
And got hit in the head with a puck.

"Uh I don't even know how they did it . . . I mean, I was playin' the organ at the time!"
(And Alan Thicke sucks!)

Ontario . . . oh-oh-oh sucks.

"Come to think of it, I pretty much hate every gosh darn province and territory in our country!"
"Well except Alberta!"
"Oh yeah, of course I love Alberta! Lot's of cows, rocks, trees and dirt . . . mmmmoo moo moo!"

But . . . I hate Newfoundland 'cause they talk so weird
And Prince Edward Island is . . . too small.
Nova Scotia's dumb 'cause it's the name of a bank;
New Brunswick doesn't have a good mall!
Quebec is revolting and it makes me mad!
Ontario sucks . . . Ontario sucks.

"Manitoba's population density is 1.9 people per square kilometre! Isn't that stupid?!"

Saskatchewan is boring and the people are old!
And as for the territories... They're too cold!

"And the only really good thing about the province of British Columbia is that it's right next to us!"
'Cause Alberta . . . a-a
Doesn't suck!
But Calgary does . . . !

Obviously, my sympathies lie with Toronto.

Bite Me was updated. *squee* Pricelessly hilarious.

Curiosity didn't kill the cat. Curiosity laid a trap for the cat, then collared it and sold it to Obsession, who led it down a merry, dangerous path, then promptly shoved it off a cliff into the Pit of Hopeless Addiction.

No, I'm not speaking from personal experience with LotR. Really. Honestly. Truly. =P

[Tuesday, February 18, 2003 | 07:08 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Remy Zero - Bitter]

I am 39% Tortured Artist

I have some artistic ability, but it is probably a hobby and doesn't drive my life into a dark abysmal hole were I am alone and against the world.

Take the Tortured Artist Test at fuali.com

Yes, woe is me. No one "gets it."

I am 57% Evil Genius

Evil courses through my blood. Lies and deceit motivate my evil deeds. Crushing the weaklings and idiots that do nothing but interfere in my doings.

Take the Evil Genius Test at fuali.com

Only 57%? >_> Something must be wrong with it. Therefore, destruction is in order.

Feeling very distant from certain people now. Friendship may be, but it doesn't feel like it when communication is sporadic. No one's fault, but it just happens. How will things stand when we go our separate ways? A friendship is hard enough to keep up with when we're all in different schools, but in different universities, probably not in the same place or province, then how will things turn out?

[Monday, February 17, 2003 | 07:26 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Yoko Kanno - Adieu]

*yawn* Miaow...times like these, I'd like to curl up in bed with my warm comforter and finish reading my books then sleep the day or night away. Can't do that though because I've an English media essay to write. I'm so very tired because I couldn't sleep last night until 4:30/5:00 a.m.

Read three books in three days. The Hours, Neverwhere, and Ender's Game, which is the most brilliant sci-fi novel I've ever read and I absolutely adore it. Continuing on Card's Ender series and making fair headway.

You're a Yaoi fangirl.

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birdy, Holden layout? How dare you make me a senseless puddle of fangirliness every time I check your blog?

Sometimes, I wish that I had someone I really could depend on. Not just someone I can run to for big scary things, but the little stressful things and even the happy things. I want someone who I can be openly honest with, who wouldn't care about my faults and just care about me. I wouldn't care who that person was as long as they were there, as a friend, an ally, a staunch companion. And I want to do the same for them. I've never met anyone who has been that kind of person for me. Maybe it's because I can never be that kind of person for anyone.

[Sunday, February 16, 2003 | 09:31 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Cirque du Soleil - Ombra]

This will be one of my more bizarre posts with an intellectual slant and slang in which I do not philosophize too much about matters of humanity and the human psyche, thereby distancing myself from my own immediate problems like any good tragic protagonist like Hamlet should. (And use run-on sentences to abuse and major injury, but not death, like Victorian writers who are ever so fond of long paragraph-like sentences.) I do procrastinate constantly (like Hamlet) and life happens to be #1 on the "Things to Procrastinate" list. Hamlet and hated, I shall become.

"Sundance is weird. The movies are weird -- you actually have to think about them when you watch them." --Britney Spears, after attending the Sundance Film Festival (New York Post, 1/28/2003 -- gacked from artfilm). (Nicked from Tin.) Well no shit, Sherlock. *insert scathing commentary full of expletives here* I don't need to say any more.

I've noticed that no one comments anymore (again). I conclude that everyone is either indifferent, doesn't understand or doesn't want to understand my posts, or just doesn't read this miniscule particle of the WWW. So in order to make sure that people do comment because I am an attention whore and a guide advised me on how to ensure people read your blog: PENIS! I invite further commentary.

[Sunday, February 16, 2003 | 03:39 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Green Day - Time of Your Life]

Times like these make me want to say nasty things about everyone and dislike myself immensely.

I don't like emotions. They're messy, annoying things that get in the way of logic. I don't like feeling things. I don't like being envious or jealous or petty or hateful or annoying or even loving or liking people or things. They form unnecessary attachments to things or people, which just hold you back when you should be doing something, but don't. Emotions are queer things. They attach you to something or someone with a vengeance and you have to try your best to get rid of it or feed off that bond. They feed you and drain you and you're never yourself when you have a bond with someone.

I wish I didn't have emotions because I can't figure mine out. Stupid, illogical, childish, and immature, I know. Life would be absent of all colour without emotions, but sometimes, black and white and gray are most vivid colours in their absence of vivacity.

I think I would like to be stupid. No, really stupid and have all these thoughts of reality and people and thoughts and emotions and thinking and life and future and present and past and fucked-up bullshit out of my mind.

I don't even know if I'm smart. I may be smart, but I know there's smarter people out there. Do I like being smart for the sake of being smart and can help people and myself through intelligence or is it that I like being smart because I can seem like I'm better than other people? Am I even smart? Am I smart because I got it and trained it and like it or do I like it only because I can earn people's praise and attention like an attention whore, i.e. blogging about stuff like this.

See why I don't want to be smart? My mind is terribly fucked up and I don't these confusing thoughts anymore. I don't want to be indecisive, indecisive and capricious anymore. I almost don't want to think anymore and wink out of existence.

On an unrelated note, I want to be a cynical little kid with a sick sense of humour in third grade again, if only to hand out these during Corporate Greed and Gross Consumerisim Focused on "Romance" and "Love" and the Colours Red and Pink Day.

On second thought, I was never cynical or in possession of a sick sense of humour in third grade, so on second thought, no. Hey, maybe I'd be allowed to sniff glue again...

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[Saturday, February 15, 2003 | 09:32 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Xenogears - Mebius]

America isn't a *bleep bleeeeep bleep bleep bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep*, it's just experiencing technical difficulties.

Read The Hours. It's a lovely book, almost the kind of way I'd like to write.

"History is bunk."
"Whoever controls the past, controls the future."
Which one do you believe in?

[Saturday, February 15, 2003 | 12:18 a.m.]
[Theme muzak: Enya - May It Be]

Singlehood Awareness Day appears to be over. I shall also call it "Sickening amount of consumerism and corporate greed" day.

Watched The Pianist. Absolutely stunning. Roman Polanski still has a skillful touch with material like this and it's a melancholy, sobering, effective movie. If the movie were a painting, it'd be in shades of light and dark gray, taupe, sepia, black and just a wash of pale, light yellow blending in the very bottom of the canvas.

I don't like winter. Winter inevitably gets me down and gray, i.e. today. When melancholy takes me, I inevitably think thoroughly about how pathetic my life is. Then the guilt, followed by defiance, settle in.

Cogito ergo sum. No fallacies instantly recognizable in that argument, unlike "I think, therefore I am." Damn the English translation.

[Thursday, February 13, 2003 | 11:04 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Green Day - Time of Your Life]

The Illiad is being made into a movie with Brad Pitt as Achilles, Orlando Bloom as Paris and Sean Bean as Odysseus. It will be called Troy. This makes me slightly ill.

It occurs to me that hordes of screaming pre-teen and teenaged and not so teenaged fangirls will flock to see this movie because of the manflesh present, especially Brad Pitt (for the older crowd) and Orlando Bloom (for the teenagers, especially). It will appeal to the male market because it's a war movie and a war fought over "the most beautiful woman in existence." The only reason why it appeals to me is because Sean Bean and Orlando Bloom are in it and other than that, the fact that they are making a movie of the Illiad in the first place horrifies me.

I bet that half of the teenagers that go see Troy will not know the myth beforehand, which also freaks me out. Ha! Will get to spoil film for them. Then again, I loathe people who spoil films, comics, books, manga, anime, etc. for me so I will keep quiet.

*snrks* Hello homoerotic subtext. Hello Greek mythology slaughtered into pathetic mess. Hello more S/O RPS! XD

Weaning self away from rugged handsomeness of Viggo Mortensen (but still have bizarre weakness for rugged older men who sort of look like him, unfortunately) and liking scruffy, unshaved Dominic Monaghan v. much. Not as much as Viggo, but he's very acceptable. ^_^

[Tuesday, February 11, 2003 | 10:44 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Koizumi Kouhei - Chance]

AN2003 will have a DDR contest. I don't know whether I should be happy or very frightened.

I've heard a rumour that Midorikawa Hikaru will be there. If he is, I'm tempted to go because it's Midorikawa Hikaru and it'd be worth facing my parents' wrath to hear that man speak in person.

WAC. Disappointing and stiflingly formalized. (Highly contrived standing ovation, anyone?) UCC ppl, not getting along with them at all. I am a sideliner, thankyouverymuch. Globalization? Do I know anything about it? Not really. Shows how disinterested I am in politics and economy and how I'm not up to date with that.

Globalization and the fight about it being good or bad has so much stereotype within it. On one side, passionate activists ("free lovin' Flat Earth supporters") and the other side, more conservative politicians ("morally bankrupt money mongers"). There's validity on both sides, but I honestly cannot decide which side has more weight. To be honest, I'm leaning toward the activist side, except I'm a person who sits on the sidelines and the passion that activists exhibit puts me off.

I realized today my opinion of people, especially people my age, in general is very low. Why? Because a load of people who attended WAC were just there to be with friends, skip a day of classes, meet/flirt with other people, or just full of poseuring bullshit to make themselves seem more intellectual. i.e. Scott Nowers who could have asked a question of Ken Wiwa with a simple sentence "What is your view of 'culture jam'?" but went on for two minutes about "Blahblahblah...What is your reaction to these reactionary reactions to the reactions to culture jam?" (I'm not lying or exaggerating; his question lay upon those lines.)

Then again, other people had a lot of insightful opinions that I don't necessarily agree with, but I have to admit have some validity. Or we agreed generally on the same thing. But, my classmate did duke it out with a guy from Chicago who argued that Nike sweatshops are beneficial to those who live in developing countries because they provide a day that those working in sweatshops otherwise wouldn't have if Nike sweatshops didn't exist. Yes, those people wouldn't have that . However, wages are not the only concern in the issue of sweatshops. It's the abuse of human rights and the conditions these people work in. It's a moral issue and whether you yourself would like to be paid a day to work in a unventilated, oppressive work environment akin to the conditions of the Industrial Revolution, which isn't even enough to buy food for a week.

Yes, cheap labour does give us cheap goods in the Western world. In reality, if corporations weren't so concerned with making profit, shoes would be cheaper and they could "afford" to pay people in developing countries enough money to feed themselves properly. Making the product doesn't cost that much money. It's the transportation, the advertising and the need to make a profit that drives prices up.

People, especially teenagers, also like it when someone swears in front of an enormous crowd in a panel that's supposedly slightly formal and for high school students. I'll quote the line "...tastes like Coke, smells like shit." When the man said shit, everyone cheered and "woo!"'d. Not because he'd made a particularly profound point or clever witticism, but because he swore. Mob mentality is incredibly easy to influence, especially when many people are so very black and white about the issue.

[Friday, February 7, 2003 | 08:34 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Danko Jones - Lovercall]

Absolutely addicted to this song now. It's got a good hip-swinging rhythm you can bob your head to and the lyrics make me laugh. He says "Lovercall!" in the cheesiest, but sexiest way I've heard. I never thought cheesy and sexy could go together.

Read this. That man needs to be told that vague generalizations along the lines of "that is the way Americans are going to react" were never considered to be barely decent arguments. People like that piss me off when they think they can speak for an entire country, especially when anti-war protests comprised of thousands of Americans have popped up all over the US.

Visited RSGC. Saw Ivan. Saw Karmen. Saw Aurel. Saw Ethan. Saw Macs. He still has the "Best Hugger" award and "Only person willing to be shoved into a car trunk for a twenty-minute ride" award.

Hmmm...Queer as Folk doesn't start until April. What a pity.

*collapses laughing* This is a smashing parody of movie!Legolas/Mary Sue fics. At least, I hope so because if it isn't, then the author and the fic scare me and I shall curl up into a ball and cry.

*shocked* ...I think I found nekkid!Viggo pict--

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[Thursday, February 6, 2003 | 11:18 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Kiroro - Happy Birthday]

I wouldn't have blogged, but someone reminded me.

Happy Birthday, Karmen!

You're 18; you can vote, buy lottery tickets and pr0n. Congratulations, especially on the last one. ^_~

In other news, I might be getting an LJ. XD Sweet, sweet, LJ that doesn't work until the third try and will probably give me headaches, but it's an LJ! U.S. a year; well worth the CAN.

LJ LJ LJ LJ LJ LJAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYY!!! XD

[Tuesday, February 4, 2003 | 07:11 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Akino Arai – Voices]

All right...Gaiman and Smeagol/Gollum slash. o_O Gaiman writes v. well and is quite humourous, but that little piece of Smeagol/Gollum squicks me.

Ha! In your face, Star Wars and Lucas! =P (Obviously not to be taken too seriously.)

The RotK Calendar is only availble through a contest. Most definitely am not getting it as I do not live in the U.S. >_<

I've fallen off the hobbies/interests cliff and I'm quite enjoying the fall down to LotR obsession. V. nice scenery, actually.

And I'm not alone, especially the RPS thing.

[Monday, February 3, 2003 | 09:35 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Yoko Kanno - Bad Dog, No Biscuit]

Langey is blogging again. ^_^ langey-chan, you (and Kitch and Kim?) are on the badminton team right? Please tell me when you guys are coming over to Havergal. I want to cheer you on. ^_^ Branksome people, Mage and Karmen, I know when you're coming over.

Is it just me or did that sound particularly menacing?

Watched TTT on IMAX. The law of marginal utility really does work, even when you're watching TTT for the third time on IMAX. 'Twas cool though on an immensely large screen and fairly empty theatre even when the movie's starting and you can have your pick of seats. ^_^ Aragorn still attractive as ever. Legolas is still "Just press play and stop at appropriate moments." Gimli still butt of short jokes and I sympathize. I am still a frightening LotR fangirl.

I do not like winter. That is all.

[Saturday, February 1, 2003 | 03:49 p.m.]
[Theme muzak: Cirque du Soleil - Ninkou Latora]

A space shuttle has exploded. More people have died. Hn.

How pitiful is it that Death is merely something distant until it hits you close to home? You don't know how to deal with it because you haven't had any experience with it and by the time it comes, the proximity is too much and you can't help but be affected severely.

Changed X Postcard Calendar. Depressed, lethargic, angsty Kakyou sprawled on a tree branch is staring at me in tones of deep gray. Oh joy...

Dante, Dante, Dante! XD *squees* I don't usually pinpoint exactly what is the best of a category, but Dante is the hottest video game hero in my opinion and one, given the chance, I would actually sleep with. (No need to tell me he's just polygons, I'm quite aware of that unfortunate fact.) DMC2's camera may suck, but that CG of him staring straight at you is mmmmmm...

I want to play Dark Cloud 2. It got good reviews. Shit.

It's February. Bloody hell. *hums "If You Cannot Find Osama, Bomb Iraq..."*

Brilliant rant on fanfiction by Zarah to be found here. Its main focus is Lotrips fanfiction, but is applicable to all fanfiction. Especially ff.net. >_>

oh. Oh. Oh... I'm shocked and laughing and grinning and can die somewhat happy because of this. Is it just me or is Orli petting Viggo like a cat or a dog? Mai burainu isu buroken. XD

The LotR obsession will go away. Really. Honestly. Well, not until I finish the books and I'm halfway through The Two Towers. And not until I get sick of Viggo Mortensen's voice. And Orlando Bloom's tactile-ness. And Billy Boyd's accent. And Dominic Monaghan's impressions. And... XD

I want the RotK calendar. Must find it!

My brain is broken another time again, except it's Elijah Wood by his solitary self wearing a sexy hat and an even sexier expression and a pose that screams "PIMP!" Britt, have you seen this picture? Normally, I'm unenthusiastic about Elijah Wood, but here, he's...wow.

I am hopeless when I am reduced to a puddle of fangirliness. XD

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